The Discriminant of The Iota

There goes an old song in bollywood where Amitabh Bachhan tells how when elders asked him to stand on his feet and do something, he stands up and croons a song that is an evergreen party number... wish we could make the same in real life( what is that anyway??? what we see around us or what we are being shown), we always look at life through the prism of results, a prism made from the glass of our desires, it seems strange at times( to me, hell yes!!!) as maybe situations and decisions taken by us could be a better parameter to judge the portrait of life that is being painted, pixel by pixel, but we are a hell of a kind, why should we take the blame upon ourselves or worse share the load for our failures and even successes between us humans, it has to be some unknown, desired( or undesired, damn i got a flu before my JEE paper, my LUCK was bad) we look to blame everything but us, too weak to take things upon us, well i may be grossly ignorant of the divine interplay ( how can he, a screwed up individual comment on others!!!)but decide for yourself or ponder upon in moments of blank whether your conscious or spontaneous decisions were right.
Decisions afterall is what we use to pass a verdict upon others,( surely in those endless historical analysis where they dissect why xyz pissed in the west!!) and courses of great people have remained pivoted around a couple of decisions that have changed the course of things (me writing this blog for instance, damn did i "decide" to to be cheeky here) yet i have wondered (yeah my cranbox is wobbling, what do you expect when you are rotting in your hostel in vacations)watching a coin being tossed in a match the crowd going fancy when the favorites win that toss i often look at the heads and tails, anti-parallel? orthogonal? complementary? substitutes? what is a coin, how easily does it arrive to a decision agreeable to all, no qualms no cribbing, but what if the coin were to stand ( sholay anyone???) what does it "stand" for, what lies in the "middle", maybe coins may never suffer from such oddity( loads of physics would have to work together to have this happen) but the coin of life is alas deformed, and physics were of little relevance, how to "decide" weren't mere heads and tails but a gamut of near heads, almost tails, some demand neither to "stand" up and it is strange how when i look around me i find myself torn between two ends, each weighing its "end" to make the coin more biased, the coins are alas flipped everyday everywhere and yet there is little we can do take Isreal( jews right to live) and Palestine( but wasnt it there land) two ends of a coin, Atheism( whom to look for answers) or Religion( what is religion giving us?), Capitalism( recession??) or Socialism( screwed up systems), Empowerment(just the right amount of control) and Independence( go ahead, Laissez-Faire), onemanship or multipartyship ( look at our state of affairs), peaceful resentment, fighting with the system within the framework or an armed aggression to a quasi system, arranged marriage( statistics which our parents gleefully point to)to love marriage( what happens if it just........vanishes)

Well there is no questions as versus here but to as to what we "decide" for our lives as "right" and "wrong" , as it is based upon what we have seen around us, what we "perceive" what we "believe" ( or made to)yet decisions in whatever form we take (we or I),(congress or BJP),( baritsa or CCD), (heads or tails)the consequence is on us on others maybe just like the butterfly effect( the flap of wings of butterfly can cause a tornado somewhere) but i wonder and i wonder the region in the middle of them, hoping that it weren't a no man's land, a region to exist, a place to escape, a reason to hide........ i wish the coin to stand so that i could have that little extra.....a little more to ponder upon in the mindless life i live......... I wish the coin would stand on its feet and break into the cacophony........... how i wish it could happen...........................